Focused

I was reading some scripture this morning and I realized something. I didn't like it. I'm almost ashamed of it.

I've become too focused.

I've become too focused on the task.

I've become too focused on planting a church.

I've become too focused on planting a church, and not focused on Christ.

It's true. I think day and night about Sojourn. I sit at my desk all day working on videos, or graphics, or songs, or anything else related to Sojourn. If I talk it's about Sojourn. If I send an email, it's about Sojourn. When i pray, it's about Sojourn. I've become so focused on Sojourn, that I've almost ignored Christ. Obviously I don't mean that Christ isn't important to me any more. And it's not that it's bad that I talk, email, and pray about Sojourn. It's very important that I do pray about it. But I noticed that I spend a lot of time praying about Sojourn, and very little time praying about anything else. I spend a lot of time talking about Sojourn, and hardly any time talking about what Christ is doing in my life. Of course, Sojourn is a part of my life, but it's not my entire life.

This wouldn't be the first time that this has happened though. i do it all the time. I'm very goal-oriented person. I always have been. It's a very good thing, I think. But at times like this I realize that I need to learn control. I have to control my impulses. I have to control my urge to become so focused that everything else fades away.

I just spend the last 15 minutes praying that I would be focused on Christ, and let the other stuff come along behind that. I feel a lot better now. Maybe I should do this more often.