Better than I thought

Here it is Sunday night. I was just sitting here thinking about the service this morning at Sojourn. It was really hard for me today. Things didn't work or happen the way I wanted them to, but I'll talk about that later.

Anyways, I was thinking about this morning and all the junk that happened. I thinking about all the things that were going through my mind this morning. I felt terrible walking out of that service this morning. I didn't think God was really worshiped at all. At least I know I had a very hard time worshiping Him. But them I starting just going through the service. I starting thinking about what all went on. Then i remembered something.

I remembered seeing someone worship.

I was so totally distracted this morning that I totally missed it. But now looking back on it, it was so clear. My problem was my guitar started cutting out. So I put it down and just sang, which is really awkward for guys like me in case you didn't know. So I put my guitar down and just sang and clapped. I was thinking in my head how bad it had to sound with my guitar cutting in and out, and how I couldn't hear anything but my voice and had no clue if I was even close to on pitch. I felt like it was so bad that everyone noticed it, and they probably thought it was a joke. But now I remember looking up, and seeing this one particular guy worshiping. Now, he wasn't worshiping like he was raising his hands and singing real loud or anything like that. But he was clapping and he was smiling and he was singing. And that's more than I think I've ever seen him do in during the music.

That made me feel a whole lot batter about today. Like I said, it was a very rough morning, but God was still worshiped despite me being human.